i'm just so disappointed in myself. to say that the GP compre was hard is no exaggeration and to say that the math paper made it look like chicken feet is true. i really studied my guts out for math, even more so than econs or history which i know will suffer because of that. so freaking worried that i can't even get an O. i know my paper had a lot of blanks and actually by the time i got to the 5th question i could feel the tears and had to push myself to continue. this sucks. i'm so not ready for As. and even if i study with all the lectures and stuff, it isn't enough. because people like me need to make sure they can do the practice papers without checking the answers 24/7 to confirm that they actually know something.

i know it was bad. (if i actually do well, remember that i THOUGHT it was bad so don't think i'm some bloody hypocrite who thought that doing badly was to get a freaking C/D) if i actually get those, i'm going to go down on my knees to thank the Lord for his grace. He'll be the first person I'd thank anyway.

Don't even feel like thinking about how i'm supposed to be studying for lit when i barely know nuts. i wish i was smarter or that the answers would drop out of the sky.